Men and Miscarriage

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Men and Miscarriage

When we talk about men and miscarriage we immediately think of the mother, the woman. The caregiver. The soul crushing ripped out feeling Mum must be feeling at the time. Now I understand for the woman it’s an excruciatingly soul destroying experience to have the child that’s growing inside her lose it’s life. My wife, she describes it as a part of her has been lost that she can never get back; the love that was building up, inside her, for her new child; gone. Fluttered away like a pack of butterflies from a flower in the summer.

It’s not an easy feat getting over a miscarriage. Ronnie in Eastenders a couple of years ago depicted the scenario extremely well. Fraught with the idea of her dead baby, she chose not to accept it and proceeded to pass off Kat and Alfies newborn as her own. Now this is extenuating circumstances but the principle is the same. It’s just extremely; actually no, brutally tough on mum whatever the situation.

But what about Dad? Dad gets off lightly, I mean all he has is the idea that he will have a child in x months and now he won’t. No hormones, no weird food imbalances, no going through the motions. Dad gets off lightly.

Or does he?

Us men aren’t very in tune with our emotions and we always like to have the notion that we have the situation under control but really; we haven’t the foggiest. We have no clue. The idea that we were going to be Dad again, or a new Dad is an exciting prospect, in fact it’s deeply woven into the fabric of society as a man’s purpose in life. Settle down and have children. Most of us want that, any man that tells you he doesn’t hasn’t matured enough yet, or has a partner that he doesn’t trust fully.

So what is a man without purpose?

Well. Here’s what happened to me on our miscarriage. I cried a little when I first found out, but sucked it up because men don’t cry, or at least that’s what I was raised to believe. I had a driving lesson that day and we tore the road home up. That day, giving my wife a hug when I got in, the helplessness I saw in her eyes, the confusion, the emptiness. It literally ripped me the fuck up inside. Ever been in a situation where you know the person you love uncontrollably has something terribly wrong and you can do absolutely nothing to help? But perhaps hug them, even if you know that wont help one bit?

Yeah, so there was me. In helpless mode, feeling numb, working on auto-pilot to best serve Natalie in any way I possibly could. I had absolutely no understanding what she was going through, I couldn’t, I still don’t.

Anyone who says Men don’t feel emptiness at the time is wrong. I did. I was going to be a Father. I was the proudest Father on the planet. I’d told all my friends, all my family, hell, even the people on the street. And now? Empty. That whole idea and the self fulfilling happiness that came with it was replaced with confusion, anger, emptiness, helplessness and a shed load of bloody numbness. But I had to be strong for Natalie. Christ, it’d be useless if I broke down too. Who would help my partner?

The coming weeks would suck in their entirety too, the love, the support and the empathy would come flowing for Natalie, and I’d watch the endless cuddles and the outstretched arms from empathic friends.. and I’d get a “oh, you ok too mate?” perhaps from one, maybe two people. “Yeah, I’m dealing” I’d say, all the while wishing I could curl up in the fetal position and rock myself crying to sleep

That being said all through the process Natalie was a strong woman, and yes, she supported me whenever she could, and yes, not for one moment did I feel less loved, and yes, she did remind her friends that I was going through an utterly crap time too. She was my rock just as I was hers.

So the next time a couple has a miscarriage; spare a thought for the man too. Give him a hug, get him to open up to you. Don’t just look at him as if he’s a solid chunk of emotionless steel that feels no pain. We hurt, we cry, we have powerful emotions. Help us realise that if we already don’t.

Thanks for listening 🙂

 

 

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28 Comments
  1. Reply
    Amelia Wakefield October 19, 2016 at 1:50 am

    Thank you so much for sharing this. My husband and I have experienced two miscarriages and I have always wondered what it was like from his perspective. At first, I’ll admit that I was a bit selfish in the grieving process. I felt that he couldn’t possibly know what I was feeling and that for him the loss wasn’t nearly as great. However, I have come to realize that he was going through it just as much as I was. In some ways, it was harder on him. People always asked how I was handling it, but never asked him. People gave me a few months to grieve and forgave me when I was just having a rough day dealing with it all, but they never gave him such a courtesy. I was given two weeks off of work, while he was expected back the next day. Men need to be allowed to express more emotion without judgement and ridicule.

    • Reply
      Raymond October 19, 2016 at 5:56 am

      Exactly right! Although I don’t think men will ever understand what it’s like to experience miscarriage. But we’ll try! And it’s about time we gave up this “stiff upper lip” nonsense and let our emotions run wild. Thanks for your comment – lovely to hear differing perspectives on it!

  2. Reply
    Janice Wald April 1, 2017 at 9:20 pm

    Hi Ray,
    I agree with the other commenters. I think a lot of men can gain support from your perspective. I am sorry for your loss because it IS a loss.
    Thank you for visiting my site earlier today and liking my post.
    Janice

    • Reply
      Raymond April 1, 2017 at 9:27 pm

      Thank you Janice. I really appreciate your sentiments!

      Funny you should comment – I was just in the process of linking you to my first blog on warrior forum – I think you’d fit well on there. I don’t know if you know but I read you regularly. Your info is incredibly insightful 🙂

      • Reply
        Janice Wald April 1, 2017 at 9:32 pm

        Would you mind sending me the link when you are done so I can see? I will be happy to share it on my social media.
        Janice

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        Janice Wald April 1, 2017 at 9:31 pm

        I did not know. Thank you I am flattered! I have heard wonderful things about Warrior Forum but have never gotten traffic from there. For that reason, I have only made a few attempts at networking there. If you could go ahead and do your plan of linking to me in your blog on that forum, it might help expedite my efforts. I am excited about our connection. Thank you for your help and support.
        Janice

        • Raymond April 1, 2017 at 9:40 pm

          Sure 🙂 – I’ve been gaining a lot of support there. I’ve been giving the members a lot of freebies. I gave 7000 of them a free link to my udemy course. I think there you first have to give something to them first to gain trust of some sort.

          But alas, it’s always try and test with these things. Your blog inspired me to create this: https://understandinggrowth.com << if you'd be interested in collaborating with me on it I'd be super excited. I know many ways to get traffic, I'm just struggling to chase the $$$ right now lol

        • Janice Wald April 1, 2017 at 9:41 pm

          I am dictating on my phone as I run errands. I can’t wait till I am at a computer to see!
          Thank you for the advice. It may help when I get to the forum.
          Janice

        • Raymond April 1, 2017 at 9:44 pm

          Good luck! 🙂 – I’ll add you as a friend on Facebook too so we can chat a bit. I may be in bed when you get back – but we can catch each other at some point! 🙂

        • Janice Wald April 1, 2017 at 9:45 pm

          It’s 2:45 PM here in California. What time is it there?

        • Raymond April 1, 2017 at 9:48 pm

          Right now? 10:45pm lol

        • Janice Wald April 1, 2017 at 9:49 pm

          LOL is right! Where are you?

        • Raymond April 1, 2017 at 9:50 pm

          UK 🙂 I’m a Scotsman living in England

        • Janice Wald April 1, 2017 at 9:50 pm

          I figured you were in Europe if it’s almost Sunday.

        • Raymond April 1, 2017 at 9:53 pm

          Yup. I collaborate with Americans, though. Not only are they far more open about this stuff – surprisingly their Mental Health and Wellbeing system is expensive and still in the dark ages for most joe public – whereas in the UK it’s all free. I spent 6 months in hospital, had good care and didn’t pay 1 cent. That’s why I talk to you guys. Lots of awareness needed! That, and it’s a much larger audience!

        • Janice Wald April 1, 2017 at 9:45 pm

          I would like that. I am Janice Wald on Facebook

        • Raymond April 1, 2017 at 9:45 pm

          Yep. See you often on #linkyourlife – that’s where I found you 😉

        • Janice Wald April 1, 2017 at 9:46 pm

          I always wonder where people find me. Thank you for letting me know.

  3. Reply
    Sinead April 26, 2017 at 1:43 am

    Your story sounds exactly like myself and my other half. We are really close and are trying to support each since we lost our baby on Saturday. It’s tough and my heart is broken, but I feel soo sad for him as it was his first baby, our first baby together. We were soo excited. And now we are just trying to find a way through. But yes, people don’t mean to, but dad’s can get forgotten in the comfort aspect.
    He is an amazing stepdad, and I’m so sad he’s had to go through this.
    Thank you for posting this.

    • Reply
      Raymond April 26, 2017 at 9:05 am

      I actually shed a tear reading this. I’m really sorry you’ve had to deal with this. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. We were super excited too, and then boom! Life has a funny way of throwing you curveballs. As for your man – keep communication lines open! Don’t let him clam up! It’s what we tend to do when we’re hurt. I loved reading the warmth you expressed for your partner – you two are lucky to have one another.

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    Blue July 23, 2017 at 11:58 am

    Five days ago (07/18/17) my world was shattered when the doctor told me there was no heartbeat and he/she was no longer growing. I was supposed to be around 12 weeks but it was the size of 6-7 weeks. It was my first ultrasound because they said I had to be within a 10-12 week range. My heart actually broke more for my husband. Knowing I had to call him at work and destroy his world because he wanted to know everything and I couldn’t hide it from him until later. We hadn’t told anyone yet because we wanted to see the baby on an ultrasound first. And we’re young. We’re married at 19 & 21 (I’m the older one.) It was our first baby and you don’t know how excited he was. He had a baby app on his phone & knew exactly how far along I was and what size the baby was approximately. It was endearing. When I told him I thought I would die. As soon as he got out of work he would go with me to mine & sit at my job for my whole 8 hour shift just so I knew he was there. Then we’d get home and cry and hold each other, he’d sleep for 3-4 hours and he’d go to work. Two days ago I had an emergency D&C and he had to leave to work 10 hours away the next day which is killing him but I encouraged him to go. The emotional pain is horrific, the loss gargantuan but his love and support even from afar is what’s keeping me going and getting me through this nightmare. In my case even though I hurt, I worry so much more for him. I can’t imagine what he feels because he has to see how heartbroken I am and he lost something great too but he won’t break down to be strong for me. My heart is shattered and I feel so alone. He’s far and our baby is gone.

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      Raymond July 24, 2017 at 10:29 am

      I’m so sorry for your loss. Words cannot express properly how you must be feeling right now. I’m sorry.

      You sound like you exist in a very supportive relationship. Hang onto that! Share your grief together and it seems as if you’re doing that already. My wife supported me as much as I did her. It made the hurt so much easier to bare.

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    Natalie September 17, 2017 at 10:58 am

    I recently had a miscarriage I was 8 wks I thought but I had bleeding and then I lost the baby I was on my own at the time it happened I didn’t even go to the hospital I didn’t know what to do I just felt alone my husband just closed up and has been closed up ever since we hardly communicate unless we are playing with our son. Just thinking this may have destroyed us ?dont know what to do

    • Reply
      Raymond September 17, 2017 at 10:57 pm

      Hi Natalie! I appreciate your comment.

      Have you tried forcing him to communicate? Next time you talk to him you could ask him how he’s coping with the miscarriage? How does he feel? Ask him if there’s anything that he would like you to do. I always ask my wife that when I’m at a loss with what she wants or needs.

      Failing that you could always seek therapy or couples therapy? I’m no professional and I think if he won’t open up then therapy is the next option 🙂

      I’m really sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine what you’re going through right now, and just when you need your partner the most he isn’t there for you. Grief is a really tough one because people deal with grief in different ways. Just remember that time is a great healer also!

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